Saturday, July 10, 2010

Is work the best medicine???

The last week was one of good realizations. I was in chaos and there were several things bothering me, the least of all - having too much time for myself. Never in the near past was I so disturbed and yet still sane - being disturbed while being sane is the crevice into which one should never get. Disturbance is a state of the heart while sanity that of the mind - meaning a conflict of the heart and the mind unrealized.

When I'm sane and able to understand that what I feel is a feeling that I should/need not feel, and still can't understand why I'm feeling, and suffer of the thought that I understand what I'm going through. Is there anything in the world that can be a medicine now?, a friendly chat... a phone call... the family... or friends - none??

Then came the third day, with it came work... I have a outlet now - work. I took the plunge immediately like a duck into an oasis with a parched throat. Finding my retreat where there is no more need for the heart and where the mind is too preoccupied to listen to its drone, let alone a conflict. Funny but true - I was rescued from my own heart. Three days of work was what it took to be my original self again. I'm happy now that I realized that I knew what I was going through, found a partner in an unlikely entity - work, and that I'm now able to feel the touch of breeze on my cheek once again.

Why do people study psychology.. when all they have to do is study themselves?.